I look forward to the day
I wake up and do not care,
That I look inside my heart
And find that you’re no longer there,
When I look inside my mind
And find the spot where you once were
No longer bears a single scar or sign
That you were there.
Looking Forward
Desperation
I think that I’m thinking
Overthinking until I’m sinking
In a starless sky,
Floating off to some parallel universe
Where you and I can be together.
Where we hold hands forever
And skip off into burning sunsets
With no thoughts of the broken hearts
We leave behind.
Daydreaming, they call it.
I call it desperation.
Nothing More
I wish for nothing more complicated
Than a silent half hour with you,
For nothing more expensive
Than your time,
For nothing more demanding
Than a walk, hand in hand,
Down a beach… or just a street…
Anywhere.
If I Were Her
If I were her,
You’d know I care.
I’d miss you when
You were not there.
But I wouldn’t hassle.
I’d let you be,
And smile while knowing
You miss me.
If I were her,
I’d be so proud,
To hold your hand
And say out loud,
That you are mine,
And I am yours,
And we’re in love
And want no more.
But I’m not her,
No, I’m not she,
So I’ll just sit here
Silently.
Wishing that it were ok
To say the words I long to say.
Signs
I look for signs in things you do,
That say you feel the same way too.
That silently and secretly,
You really, truly feel for me.
You Promised Me a Rainbow

You promised me a rainbow,
All I got was pain though.
Not a pot of gold
In the spot where you’d hold
My hand and we’d dance in the rain.
No.
You promised me a rainbow.
But all that came was rain.
Unintentional
I love you entirely by accident
And not in spite of your flaws,
But because of them.
I love you simply because
I no longer remember how not to
And have no desire to relearn.
I love you in spite of knowing
It could never really end well,
And that my moment in Heaven
Could cost a lifetime in Hell.
To the One I Should Not Love
I know far better than to dream
That this is more than what it seems,
To let myself play to these taunts,
To let myself desire, to want.
I’m far too wise to fall for you,
The way I’m trying not to do.
I’m wise enough and it is clear
This thing we have will end in tears.
But I’m too gone to walk away,
Despite my head, my heart will stay.
For you are all I can think of,
The One I know I should not love.
Falling
I didn’t choose to fall this way,
To play this dangerous game we play,
I slipped, and tripped and now must keep
These feelings felt, for I’m too deep.
I’d like to think, that if I could,
Climb back out, I surely would,
But really, if I’m being true,
I like this when it’s shared with you.
I Spy
I spy a chance to steal a kiss
A moment of forbidden bliss
In a life so otherwise safe
From this,
From this heart jumping excitement
Romantic enlightenment
The type that could hurt
If you change your mind one day.